Is my grace really sufficient for thee?

Mercy...The witholding of deserved discipline. Grace...freely given favor.

I falter daily and my resolve is weak. That which I know I should do I often ignore in favor of pleasing a whim. It's no surprise then that I am familiar with the word "mercy" because as much as I am aware to thank God for His generosity, I also know deep in my core He tries to guide me to live His way and I oppose it with my own. I know my own problems and therefore seek mercy. I do trust God's way is wiser than what I know, and after many years of following Jesus, I have proof that where He leads me is the very best place for me to go. I need mercy and in his loving care He dispenses it. At times I get disciplined as a child by her father, yet somehow He manages to do this tenderly, holding my spirit so it is not reduced to rubble. I don't know anyone else in the world who can do that. I pray God teaches me to care for our daughters and those around us in the same manner.
"My grace is sufficient for thee" 2 Corinthians 12:9.

Before I ever thought of lifting my concerns to an unseen God, I made my own plans and consulted no one. At age 23 I faced a sudden high-risk pregancy and a baby girl who was four months in my womb. I placed my confidence in my doctors and laid my fears on my mom, and somehow through tumultous times delivered wondrous Sofia who this year will be 13 years old. My world would be empty without her, God knew allowing me to be her mom would bring me to Him and because of Jesus, to myself. Abiding in His care is one of the most peaceful and astounding things I have experienced. Where did such generosity come from and why? I didn't invite Him to come yet He came and saved my girl and touched my life...Love that is freely given, favor that is unmerited. Thank you God for your way of giving grace. Remember me this week especially Lord. These memories surfaced because I long to abide in your care, casting my fears on you and needing to be covered in your grace once again. Fortify my faith. Amen

Wishing any who read this to join me in enumerating all of life's blessings and in the words of Charles Spurgeon, "As for His failing you, never dream of it - hate the thought. The God who has been sufficient until now, should be trusted to the end".